Change and life

This is quite a personal post for me but something I've wanted to write about for a while now. 

Change is something I've always hated since being little. It's always made me feel funny and send panic to my brain. Change on many occasions can be a positive thing but its still quite a scary process. 

Recently I found myself going through a lot of changes in my life and its made me reflect on how hard change can be to deal with but also exciting at the same time. So I thought I'd reflect on how I'm dealing and coping so I can look back and be proud of were I am now. 

University
I recently started my masters degree which is quite a big thing for me! I never thought I would be wanting to go back to university after 3 years but here I am. Its quite a scary process I was quite comfortable in my small little class of 20 people. I've now moved to a much bigger university and my class has 60 people in which is quite daunting since I'm so shy. But I'm excited for the change and the process of bettering myself for the future. Also digital marketing is exactly what I want to do so I'm excited to keep learning.

Job

I've also just started a past time job alongside my masters! I'm happy to be getting money FINALLY basically to spend on clothes because why not? It can be hard going into a new environment were everyone is already comfortable and know each other very well. Everyone so far seems nice though luckily.

Friends

I know I'm not alone in this but being so shy can bring its problems, making friends can be quite a hard task for me. I always seem to have the friends for a reason or season in my life rather than long term friendships. I'm hoping with all these changes in my life to try and be brave and not so shy as hard as that can be so I can put myself out there and make friends.

Blogging

I don't know if anyone else gets like this but as soon as I'm busy I get really into my blog again. Its like an escape from uni work and stress. This month I'm determined to get back on track with it and stop being so lazy. I'm going to start posting regularly again, scheduling tweets and interacting with more bloggers. 

Loneliness

The older I get the more I feel like this is becoming more important to me. Other than family I don't have many people around me. Dont get me wrong I love my family more than anything. The blogging community is always so welcoming too. I actually hate being on my own. I dread any time I have to be by myself. Being a twin ( which is amazing if your reading twinny) always has meant I've not really had to be alone but as I'm getting older its something I have to get used to. So I'm trying to leave to enjoy being on my own and fill my time doing things I love like walking, reading and blogging.

Eczema and allergies

With the change in weather as we move into A/W my skin always like to go a little crazy. The cold weather is awful for my skin and my eczema has already started to flare up and my lips swelling like clown lips. As of next month I'm going to try and change my diet. I eat very little and don't give my skin and body what it needs so I'm going to do my best to change my eating habits in the hope of it helping my skin.

Driving lessons

This is something I've wanted to do for sooo long but I've always been so scared and made excuses to stop myself. But I'm finally going to start my lessons next month, I have my money saved for a car already so I just need to pass. It's a scary but really exciting prospect as I cant wait for the freedom it will bring.


Well done if you got to the end of my ramblings, I don't do personal posts often as I'm never quite sure anyone is interested but I quite enjoyed writing down all my thoughts.

Olivia
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My thoughts on university

I'm now at the stage when all I have left is two exams and then I have finished university. I have been studying for three years at Liverpool Hope University studying both Tourism and Marketing. I can't quite believe how fast the time has gone! I thought since my university experience is coming to an end I'd write up my thoughts about my time there. 

1. Was it worth it? At £9,000 a year it certainly isn't cheap! Now I've finished I question if I knew then what I know now would I still go? I think I would as for me its definitely helped me decided what career path I want to take and allowed me to come out of my shell a little more. The debt is a hell of a lot so it's definitely not something I decided to do on a whim. 

2. Living at home is okay - There are so many people who say there is no point in going to university unless you move out, as thats all part of the experience. Yes for lots of people moving out is the right thing to do but not for everyone. Personally university for me wasn't about the social aspect, I don't go out drinking and parties aren't really my thing. Therefore I decided to live at home and for me it was definitely the right decision. Yes in the beginning it felt like everyone else knew each other but there were plenty of people who also lived at home and soon enough I found friends. 

3. Get experience - After three years this is definitely something I wished I had done more of. Now as I am looking for jobs and seeing that many require experience I wished I would of put more effort in to finding experience within different fields while I had the free time. I did get experience in a hotel chain doing social media marketing at the end of my degree and I definitely wish I had got more. 

4. Did I do the right course? - If I could go back now I definitely wouldn't do the degree I did ( Tourism and marketing). Before university I had never done marketing so it felt quite risky, but honestly I have loved it, whereas tourism which I had done before I really didn't enjoy. It definitely makes me think as long as you find a subject you are interested in and are willing to work hard then you can do any subject you like. 

5. Assignments - I wish I would of spent more time on my assessments earlier on in my degree. Now I've done my dissertation, after spending so much time planning and writing each aspect, I wish I would of done the same with my other essays. The disseration is definitely hyped up in my opinion, for me I had essays in my final year that were worth more than my disseration, yet I spent so much more time writing and perfecting my disseration which looking back doesn't make any sense. If I had my time again I would definitely be more organised and spend more time on each assignment. 

So there we go, there are my thoughts on university. Have you been to university? what was your experience?

Olivia

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